Well, I must say that I swing back and forth between really, really wanting to go back to school, and contemplating running away to the mountains in order to avoid it. Funny, I seem to feel this way about a lot of things. People especially.

Hrrm. I've been pulled back down the hole of anime addiction, and am spending way too much money on it. I am, however, putting most of it aside for the China trip. I think I'm going to convince my family to join Netflix, so I can rent anime, as opposed to buy it. I've definitely realised it's Too Fucking Expensive. Manga is my thing now, because it's only Damn Expensive. Unfortunately, choosing WHAT to buy puts me in a horribly state of indecision which makes me want to either:

a) slit my wrists with the pages of Case Closed, vol. 2 or

b) spend ungodly amounts of money so that I don't even have to decided at all!

... Fortunately, I can usually narrow it down a bit. Soon, I shall begin a weekly trip to various Barnes and Nobles and Borders in order to be a cheap assed person and read that crap for free! HELL. YES. I. AM. THAT. DESPERATE.

Sometimes I feel utterly dysfunctional. It has become a nuisance. I CAN'T SPELL EITHER.

Livejournal posting is losing its appeal, but I still like to read other peoples' entries. I guess I'll just post when I'm bored beyond all reason, like right now!

I think my current mood can be summed up in the unending craving to watch a bunch of chick flicks. Actually, it isn't a craving. This... THIS IS A FUCKING NEED. NEEED I TELL YOU. I think it might be because I've been watching children's movies (decent ones, mostly) such as Totoro and Muppets from Space and Muppets Wizard of Oz and Chicken Run and Wallace and Gromet... all because of the poor weather.

Please, if you pity me, drop me a line... I have FREE movie tickets, people. Only can do if you provide your own transportation, I'm afraid, because everyone (ie, les parents) is back working now.

Right now, I have that dully unstable feeling, in which one is sort of shaky and sweaty and has this pain in the back of the neck, and can't really tell whether one is feeling decent or horrible emotionally.

I think I'll take a bath now. I've been taking more of those lately. Maybe it's partially because I can read Pride and Prejudice while bathing, but I really think it's part of the chick-flick, children's movies, manga whore thing. It all just makes me feel so UNCLEAN.